Turning A Corner

Once again, I have gone without updating dating in over a month haha. I find myself to busy to sit behind a computer and type out my days events, as much as id love to.
I am currently working two jobs. Still doning landscaping and now I have a job as a cashier at Academy. Academy has been nothing but awesome so far.

I have turned a new leaf in my life, I have discovered therapy through writing. I pretty much write all the lyrics for ASY now. Our current EP doesn't reflect that, but our new cd will. It's crazy to think we've been a band for such a short period of time and we already have an EP and a full length ready to record. Them chemistry between all of us in incredible.

For the first time in my life, I have legitimate feelings for a girl. It took me rekindling a connection with a middle school "love" to realize what I truly need in a partner. im sorry from the bottom of my heart that it wasn't her, but she helped me open my eyes so for that I'm thankful. Back to the girl. I find myself oddly attracted to her, as cliche as it sounds it was practically love at first sight. Shes hands down the most gorgeous girl I have ever laid eyes on, shes intelligent, witty, funny, and just an all around caring girl. She has inspired me to the greatest of lengths, and she brings out the best in me, shes beyond amazing, the girl lights up the room no matter where she is, and she doesn't even know it. She does have one downside, and that happens to be her boyfriend.......it figures the one girl I start having legitimate feelings for would have a boyfriend. At least I have her in my life, that'll do for now I guess.

After struggling with the two extremes of "partying" or being "straightedge" ive decided (with the help of the aforementioned young lady) that I don't need to party, I enjoy life more, its better for my voice, just an all around better idea. I choose not to claim any title, if I want a beer ill drink a beer. But I don't see myself loosing the state of sobriety anytime soon, if ever.

Times are hard, But with the help of my closest friends, family, brothers in ASY, and her. It'll take more than life can ever throw at me to keep me down.

-Chris

p.s. ITS GETTING COLD!!!!!!!
p.s.s. I have finally excepted I love country music, mainly Brad Paisley, weird.

Recording

Was fucking amazing and stressful.
It was awesome working with a guy I looked up to growing up.

This band is on to something special.

Just wait and see!

I have a lot to share, but not right now.

Dexter season 2 and bed!

Wild Weekend

Friday night I drove out to FWB for a late night practice.
Shafey decided we should grab a beer since I got there like 4 hours early.
Low and behold Quintin showed up out of nowhere, Dave Miller was there and then a bunch of other dudes from the FWB chapter showed up.

We had a few laughs and a couple beers and then I went to practice.
Practice was pretty rad, turns out I'm singing a bunch now, kinda weird but fun.

After Practice Erik, Steven, and I walked back to the Duck and got a dew more beers.
A huge party broke out people were dancing and getting buck wild it was crazy.
We all ended up at Dave's and continued to party till the sun came up.
I might a pretty awesome connection with the 26 year old, turns out shes one of my friends "ex" so that's a no go.

Saturday Quintin and I came back to Milton and got lunch with Destry and Coogss. Quintin and I went to the compound to re-fuel our highfighters, and ended up playing video games for half the day. Then Cooggs, Quintin and I went to Destrys and we all hung out for a while and vaped. Then we all took our highfighters to wal-mart and got some pepsi and what not. Came hoem and a couple drinks and watched tv. Cory came over and so did Brittney, and then Courtney(titties) and that was kinda awkward. I find it humorous when people go out of there way to not talk to me.

Sunday I worked with my parents in the morning, bought madden 10, and went to practice. Practice was super awesome. Except Erik "accidentally" ate his roommates special brownie, but it was so funny seeing him like that no one was mad. Right after practice jayfray surprised me with a delicious treat. then we all went to the shop (tattoosforever) and hung out for at least 2hours and shared sooooo many laughs.

Shauncey is dating the nurse from the crazy Ocala trip. I know hes a good dude because, my first thought was "Lucky her" I know he'll treat that girl like a queen. I'm happy to see him so happy.

Overall good weekend.
I'm still way to lonely for my own good though.
and I wish I was leaving for tour tonight with AMBUSH!

At least I have recording to look forward to this weekend.
even if it IS in Tampa :/

-Chris

Yet

Another Uneventful day.
The only thing really worth mentioning is I might be coming part owner of my bosses company.
That would allow me unlimited touring and a steady job when Im not.
Could be fucking awesome!

Here we go again!

Alright, so once again its been about a month since my last post.
I actually was in the middle of an extremely long and detailed post when my computer crashed.
I have my computer back now and heres a quick update
Dad is home, he is finally out of the woods....I think.
ASY is my new baby in life. Ive never felt more confident.
We record with Kelli from M.A.T.S.O.D. the first weekend of September.
Went to Ocala this weekend. Fucking amazing.
Britney is the most confusing girl ever.
I have kind of weeded out my friends, and I wouldnt have it any other way.
Work still sucks
So do girls.

But I think Im actually happy?

Only time will tell.

-Chris

Clearity!

Dads surgery was a lot more intense than thought. He had half of his colon removed, as well as some intestine. He may also have cancer. Sometime this week he will finally come home hopefully.
Its really made me realize how much I really love my dad, and how much we really don't hang out.

All-star years first show went alright.
I was sick as was the rest of the band, but we did pretty well.

Ambush was fucking amazing. They are going to blow up.

There's been a couple people doing sketchy things.
Whatever.

I just dont feel like doing this.

haha

-Chris

Tired.

Work was alright
Dad has surgery tomorrow
Massive storms most the afternoon
Practice was awesome for all of us being sickish
hung out with Shafey, sooo awesome
I have a crush on Chance.

Sooo much going on.


-Chris

Woah!

Friday:
Shauncey and I embarked on the journey to Ocala, which Involved stealing some stuff from and auto parts star and mcgyvering together a trailer wire. We pick up Blake and dropped him off in Tally. The drive there was bittersweet, you really get to know someone talking for 5 hours straight deep into the early morning. Got there at 5 slept for about 3 hours.

Saturday:
Met up with Tom and Mikey and Moes. Hung out there. Then Mikey Shauncet and myself started moving in to Lisas house. It took a while. I Barrowed a Denis Rodman jersey. Then I left to make the drive home alone. Leavign Shauncey behind was alot harder than I expected. Def. got choked up like a motherfucker. Picked up Blake in Tally and had a not so deep talk about girls and sex all the way home haha.

Sunday:
Drove out to FWB. Hung out with Pat and Shafe for a little bit. Then jammed for about 12 hours. I learned the whole set and wrote a new song. This band is amazing. I love hanging out and the music is flat out phenominal. Drove home went to sleep.

Today:
Worked till lunch. Then rushed to the ER to see my dad. Still not sure what exactly is wrong hes staying the night there. I recieved a crazy out pouring of love from my Fury family and some of the DKC guys today. It meant more than theyll ever know. Dropped my guitars off at Rodgers to have them set up, hes such an awesome old guy.

I play my first show with ASY Friday.
Practice tomorrow.

-Chris

p.s. feminst girls piss me off.

Short and Sweet

Tonight was almost awesome.
I feel more like family with my friends then I do with my family.
Im Moving Shauncey tomorrow, Jamming with ASY Sunday.

-Chris

Up and Down

Im so tired of up and down days.
Yesterday after work I find out I have a nail in my tire.
soooo thats starting again, cool!
Work wasnt to bad though.

Went to the shop got Ryans face on my leg haha and vis verse.

Morgans being a lame ass

but

Tonight should be awesome.

A Change In The Year

Today started out horrible.
I was questioned by my mom about some random shit.
my car got egged, which led to me being late to work.

But then I went and saw Cory, Destry, and Steven before work.
Afterwork I rented the Terminator game...its awesome.
Hung out with Destry, Steven, Titties, and Sarah.
We had Dennys.

Steven and I got to talking about music and his band All Star Year
We went ended up driving all the way to my house to jam and really hit it off.
we wrote two killer songs in an hour.
if the rest of the band is down I will be Joining them.

Maybe this will be a better year after all. ;)

-Chris

Like Making A Soundtrack.

Saturday I cut the grass.
Went and got Josh and drove around and played with our dogs.
thats about it.

Today I helped my parents clean the business and then came home and jammed with Mykal, Cory, and Kendal. I played drums and believe it or not it actually came out awesome.
Im contemplating spending a little cash and revamping my set to make it bad ass again.
well see.

I might play a show a week from now?
that would be crazy.

You know that feeling you had as a kid where when you lost your self deep in imagination everything around you seemed to fade away and you were the king of your own domain, even if it was only for that short period of time.
I feel that way every time I play music, especially with a group of friends.

Today I felt that for the first time in a long time.

After that I went to the Fiasco residence, we got pizza and took a nap apparently.
Came home, Went and bought some shit for my mom, ran into Ryan and Kristi and then rented the Transformers game.

Overall today was good.

I start another boring work week tomorrow.
this week does have potential though :)

-Chris

Taking A New Road

Ive been meaning to update this everyday, but usually when I remember it I'm to tired and just go to sleep.

A lot has changed and for the best I might add.

Thursday, I traded in my truck for a 2010 Toyota Carola Sport. Its red and its standard which is weird but I like it and that's all that matter. My car payments have dropped substantially, I'm not nearly as in debt as before, and the gas mileage that thing gets is incredible. The best part is it had 0 miles on it when I purchased it and it is completely in my name. My parents had to co-sign on the truck simply because I was 18. Now I actually feel so much more grown up, I have my own car with no connection to my parents and I'm on my own insurance policy.

This all means that I will have a little money in my pocket now and Ill be able to hang out with my friends alot more, atleast the ones that are still here haha.

Last night was fun, I skipped work because Kimbo "Elton" Slice had a lump on his side so My mom and I took him to the vet. Then we went to the dealership to finish some paperwork, and then out to lunch. I love one on one time with her, definitley the best mom a dude could have. Then Cory came over and we hung out, then we drove to the compund. Shafey and Kendal came in to town.(Still think Kendal is super cute) Hung out, played tons of Cornhole. Then Shauncey and I went swimming at our spot. On the way home we stopped in at Whata-Burger and got helped by the cutest girl. Came home, went to sleep.

Morgan is still confusing, but I guess I could say that about all the girls in my life.

Today im supposed to Jam with pretty much the reminants of S.O.S. that should be fun.

Overall im happy, and I like it.

-Chris

p.s. Being sober is amazing.

Crazy Times

Yesterday Grant left, to go to Atlanta and see 10 for 10. Totally jealous.
It's really weird having my little room to myself again, I like it...and dont all at the same time. I cant wait for Grant and I to get our own place.

I really dont know how I feel about Morgan, shes kinda creeping me out latley. I kinda have been getting the clingy un trustworthy vibe from her and I really dont like it. On top of that I am very dedicated to reaching my goal of becoming straightedge and being a stronger person, but she always wants to hang out at bars and things of that nature, which wasnt even my scene when I was drinking.

Ive done a couple cool things since my last post:
-Wrote a couple new songs
-Caught an Endwell show
-Ate and played pool at Sluggos with a big group of friends.
-Met a crazy hobo named Nolan....no doubt a crack head.
-Noel came all the way down to Florida on Sunday to visit spare of the moment, she showed up at 4.a.m. She brought a really stupid friend who apparently just got over swine flu? Noel her friend myself and Grant hung out at the beach for an hour or so chasing crabs haha, random.

Ive been fighting off this sickness for about a day or so. I really hope it stays like it is and doesnt get any worse.
Grant is sick too.
weird.
(sidenote I hope its not swine flu, thatd be our luck)

Seven Pounds is an amazing movie!

-Chris

A change in the tide.

This weekend was pretty amazing.
Friday Grant came home, I love having my brother home.
Friday night was Bloodstorm '09
Shauncey, Grant, Cheese, Destry, Chris, and myself went out and about all night going crazy, here is a fun little list:
-Fireworks
-Guns
-The Beach
-Loud Music
-Fast Cars
-Quad Moon
-D-Generation X
-Trains
-Pools
-Nudity

pretty much alllllllllllll awesome.

Then today was UFC 100
Thats about all that happened.

Myself, Ryan Eaton, and Shauncey are all going Vegan until the end of this month at least. It's not a far stretch from my normal vegetarian lifestyle but its pretty hard to stay straight.

I have been living the sober life latley and I love it, if I can continue this without fucking up till october 3rd I will officialy claim Edge.

Im excited about this.

-Chris

Captain No Limits

Well I already suck at keeping this thing updated haha.
4th of July was fucking insane. Not only is it independence day but Its my big brothers birthday. Things got buck wild. Here is a fun little list:
-DKC
-Fireworks
-Cookout
-Eating special brownies
-Late night race to Alabama for more fireworks with Anna, Titties, Sarah, and Destry. Anna about killed us 700 times. and it all ended with booty dancing with Destry in the parking lot of redneckville.
-I lit Cheese's car on fire with a roman candle
-Put it out
-Then late night Pool hoping.

I'm tired of breaking promises to myself. I say I'm going to stay sober and I do a good job then I eat a special brownie....fail.

But I'll stay clean from now on. no worries.
I would like to actually be able to claim "Edge" on day.

These past two days have consisted of sleeping and thats about it.
I love and hate rain.

My new goals by the end of the year:
-200ibs
-Vegan
-Sober
-New Job
-New Band
-New Life

I got this
-Chris

p.s. my "r" and "h" key are fucked up, makes typing a bitch.

Update City

Well here goes, picking back up officially.

where to begin, well since my last post I've done a couple tattoos, then quit apprenticing for many reasons. Ryan's mom passed away, that was one of the saddest things ever. I've gone vegetarian, Started working out everyday, and am working landscaping again.

I have reached a new dark place in my life. I've had some very dark and scary thoughts, I feel it says a lot when you have thoughts that scare yourself. I feel as though I have nothing to wake up for in the morning.

I have no significant other, no real job, no direction in life, no band, and I'm not following any of my dreams. I work in ridiculous work conditions making almost minimum wage and can barley pay my bills. For the first time ever I heard the words "I am falling for you" from a girl I really cared for just to have that fall to pieces in a matter of a couple of confusing days. I have two absolute best friends that are more like brothers than anything, one of which tours all the time and lives in P.C. now. and the other is moving to Ocala in a month. I know it could always be worse, but its pretty close.

I am just making it, day by day.

I have been writing a lot though, maybe out of all this darkness beauty will be born, like a pheonix from the ashes......only time will tell.

-Chris

Back To It

Its been a couple months since I've updated this at all.....but with so much going on I figured it would help me get my thoughts out.

Massive update tomorrow, for now I am exhausted.

-Chris

Another Cold Night

It's been a while....lets see

The day after my last post my parents took my truck away from me so I have been stranded at my house, except for when Cory comes and gets me. I haven't been up at the shop everyday like I like to be, but what can you do? This last Saturday was pretty awesome. Business was slow as fuck at the shop and it eventually lead to me and Pat having a awesome Idea. The annoying apprentice girl sits around all day drawing pirate ships, well we decided since she wasn't there everyone there is getting a free pirate ship haha. So needless to say I have a new pirate ship piece on my arm.

Grant is home from tour, which is awesome I missed having my best friend around. I actually am at his house right now, Mason sure did miss me having me around. I'm glad I get to at least have Grant around right now, I have been feeling pretty bummed lately. I don't really know why, but I have been sleeping almost all day, everyday.

I went over to Ryan's house the other day. It's always good to see him, no matter how long its been since the last time we talked it's like we pick up right where we left off. I guess that's what happens when you are raised together. Nancy is doing horrible, it breaks my heart to see what shes going through. It must be the worst thing ever being trapped in your own body. I've been bracing myself for her death any day, which is the saddest thing to ever say .

I haven't applied at any fast food places, I just cant bring myself to work at one, I have been toying around with joining the army a lot. I could joining for the minimum amount of time and then get out and pursue the rest of my life and dreams, but I feel like I am at a very pivotal point in my life and 4-6 years is a big chunk of life when you're 20.

Something needs to happen, and it needs to happen now.

-Me

Closest thing to a good day

I have had in a while.

Woke up, ate fruity pebbles(awesome) Then I went to Shaun's place picked up Quecke and Shaun we went to panera bread(awesome) then we dropped Quecke off at the airport. On the way back to the shop Shaun and I decided that he should tattoo a blashpomus ass piece on me. So I ended up getting a "Devil Susej" tattoo down the whole right side of my right leg. It is pretty bad ass. But god-damn did it hurt. Then after haning around the shop, buisness was good today, I came home and Ashley came over. Needless to say we had a very good time ;)

I still need a job, I guess i'll bite the bullet and go apply at some fast food places tomorrow and see how that goes.

p.s. I am so glad I have such solid friends, it's kinda like the extended family I never had.

-Me

A change in the winds

I haven't posted anything in a couple days. Simply because they have been extremely uneventful, and the only thing more pathetic than an uneventful day is taking the time to write about it. The only real thing worth even talking about is having an old "friend" bugging me. Sometimes I wish people would just pretend I don't exist, I mean you might as well if you do 99.9% of the time anyway right? Oh yeah, and Cory came over and took some pretty rad pictures of me, so that was pretty cool. Our jams have been unproductive but I have some really cool ideas swimming around in this crazy head of mine.

Today I took Maya to the vet, she finally had her ear bandages taken off, which makes me happy. I don't feel bad looking at her anymore, and shes happy as hell about it! Then Shauncey, Quecke, and myself drove out to the Fort for Pats baby shower. (note to self:never attend another baby shower) neeless to say it was boring as fuck, but I got to see some people I dont really get to see so that was cool. We came back, Shaun tattooed Quecke and then we went to Fridays and had some good food. Then came back, went upstairs and played Skate, watched some its always sunny and thats about it.

Ive been talking to this girl Ashley, she is really really fun. I hope we get to hang out soon.

Everything is so confusing right now, everytime something starts to feel right im immidiatly reminded the real shitty situation I am in. My parents are constantly on my nuts about finding a job, I mean I dont really blame them. Its not like I dont try though. I have been contemplating joinging the army but if I do I will not talk to anyone including my family. I will strictly be a United states soilder. Nothing more, Nothing less.

I just need to find a steady job and continue apprenticing until I can tattoo full time.
or
find a band that is already making good money.

I would love to say "things will work out, they always do" but that couldnt be further from the truth.

-Me

Friday the 13th

Was a stormy day all day, I woke up at 4a.m. but actually got out of bed around 6a.m. drank coffee and made muffins. Then Maya woke up and I played with her for a little while. I had this whole elaborate scheme which included going out applying for more jobs and washing my truck and pretty much be as productive as possible. But considering I went to sleep at Midnight and after one very random and just flat out fucking weird dream waking up and not being able to go to sleep. I ended up laying down with Maya and falling asleep almost all day until about 2p.m. I then went to the shop, did the usual. (I cant stand the new apprentice girl that has been coming in) But Kendal came in to get tattooed today, I am not quite sure what it is about her but she is just so fucking cute. Turns out Putty came in today. He is on leave until Monday. I missed that kid. After me and Kerr closed down the shop I went and had a pretty long conversation with Putty over cigarettes and a few beers. Then we watched a couple of south park episodes with Shaun and Z. I drove Z home. Once I got home I made the best sandwich ever (buffalo chicken, peppercorn ranch,sweet baby rays BBQ, and two kinds of expensive cheese) and now here I am. About to pass out and probably sleep way to late to really accomplish anything tomorrow except work at the shop.

I am pretty sure come some time next week I will be enlisting in the United States Army.

p.s. Lesson learned today, do not wear a beanie all god damn day.

-Me

Just Another Day

Today was a typical day in what has become almost a routine.

I wake up (usually way to late by most standards)
Search for jobs / check up on applications
Play with Maya
Go to the shop and try to learn something new, and or stay busy

The only thing out of the norm was the fact that my dad and I had to plug a hole in my tire. Apparently a big ass bolt found its way in to my tire. Which leads me to believe someone set it underneath it. But whatever.

Maybe that's my problem, why I cant seem to stay happy. "But whatever" seems to be my cure-all lately.But.............whatever.

p.s. Being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up.

-Me

Sleepless Night

Today I applied for a job at both Wal-Greens and West. All though I am not quite sure how either will go there is always hope I guess. The ideal situation would be finding a job that I can either work during the early day(7am-3pm), or work a grave yard shift (12am-6am) either way so I can continue my apprenticeship at 3 Saints. I don't really know why, or how it happened but in the past month it has become a strong passion to be a tattoo artist. Maybe its the enviornment, well not so much the dumbass customers, but the whole true tattoo comunity is overall an enjoyable one. Then again it could be the freedom it allows. I used to think that my only real way of having an "outlet" was writing and playing music. Well as of latley I have found that its not just music, its art in general. Wether it be painting, drawing, or just creating things. The art of creation is just so inspiring to me, especially in a world where computers have taken over so much.

but on with the day,
I went up to the shop around 5p.m. or so. The usuals were up there. Its weird how they have all become kinda like a group of friends that you would have in highschool. Everyone is so diffrent but we some how all mesh. I did the usual, clean, haha. But I did work on my line drawings, Myck said im doing a lot better. Then Shaun, Cory, Z, and myself all met Courtney up at Denys for some ummm whatever you call a meal at 1a.m. We had the fucking weirdest waiter of all time ever. I think he was on meth, and more than likley homosexual. (not that there is anything with being gay) just stating a fact.

Notes:
I need cigaretes.
I still need a job.
I need to take Maya to the vet.
I need to find out why my oil light is on in the Tundra.
Loose weight.

Maybe I can fall asleep before the sun comes up.

p.s. Journey is the greatest band of all time..........ever.

-Me

Migraine City

Well today was pretty uneventful, considering I didn't get up till about 6 in the afternoon. Migraines are a son of a bitch. I would periodically wake up with water running from my eyes because of the intense pain. I used to wonder how people in the middle ages where so ignorant to think that certain illness and pains were signs of demons or being possessed. But after today, I can relate to thinking such things. I felt like I was going insane.

I went and met my parents up at Ollies and had some wings for dinner. Then I came home played with Maya a little bit. She has a weird lump on her right side. I'm kinda concerned, I plan on calling the vet tomorrow to see what is going on.

Now im just sitting around watching Donnie Darko (forgot what a good movie it is) and just had a funny conversation with Alix. That girl never ceases to amaze me haha.

p.s. I really really need a job.

-Me

A "Day to Remember" Indeed

So early Monday morning right after my last post a very good friend of mine took me out to a pretty cool spot out on the bay. We drank cheap gas station coffee, and smoked our cigarettes talking of the past, present, future. I feel like a lot of it was simply me babbling but deep down I think it did us both some good. We came back to my place around 6 in the morning and jammed for a little bit, we didn't accomplish to much (lack of equipment for him) but it was still very intense, I guess being balls tired and jamming as the suns coming up through the window can make some cool ideas flow. After that I took Maya to the vet. Shes growing up super strong and healthy I am excited to see how big she gets. Then I finally tried to take a nap.

Well after a short lived power nap I woke up to something so amazing I didn't quite believe it. I was being offered to not only travel to Europe in 5 days, but I would be playing guitar with one of my favorite bands "A Day To Remember" after a couple of frantic phone calls to people with the band and some nifty footwork on my dads behalf involving getting a passport in such short notice I was set and ready to go, I just needed the go ahead "Yes". So I send an email to Neil and Tom, The guitar players of A Day To Remember", seeing what the situation is looking like. After what felt like an eternity of waiting, I finally received the email I was expecting "We have someone else to do it"

Now don't get me wrong, there is still an opportunity that by some very unlikely circumstances I will still be able to full-fill this amazing offer. But the out look is grim.

What a very long and eventful day.
I still need a job.
But at least I have a select few friends and family that make life worth living right now.


p.s. I also learned that Ranch goes good on "Sloppy Joes"


-Me

aaannndddd so it begins

I'm not really sure as to why I decided to start a blog. Maybe its more of a diary than anything. I got the idea from a really good friend. I will go ahead and give you a heads up. I am not doing this to impress anyone as far as my grammatical skills, or the content that these blogs may or may not posses. This is simply to put out the things that are constantly rolling around in my head.

I'm off to enjoy cigarettes and cheap gas station coffee, with the company of a good friend.

-me