Update City

Well here goes, picking back up officially.

where to begin, well since my last post I've done a couple tattoos, then quit apprenticing for many reasons. Ryan's mom passed away, that was one of the saddest things ever. I've gone vegetarian, Started working out everyday, and am working landscaping again.

I have reached a new dark place in my life. I've had some very dark and scary thoughts, I feel it says a lot when you have thoughts that scare yourself. I feel as though I have nothing to wake up for in the morning.

I have no significant other, no real job, no direction in life, no band, and I'm not following any of my dreams. I work in ridiculous work conditions making almost minimum wage and can barley pay my bills. For the first time ever I heard the words "I am falling for you" from a girl I really cared for just to have that fall to pieces in a matter of a couple of confusing days. I have two absolute best friends that are more like brothers than anything, one of which tours all the time and lives in P.C. now. and the other is moving to Ocala in a month. I know it could always be worse, but its pretty close.

I am just making it, day by day.

I have been writing a lot though, maybe out of all this darkness beauty will be born, like a pheonix from the ashes......only time will tell.

-Chris