Rise Or Die

I was thinking to myself the other day about how much time I waste on a day to day not really doing anything. Time to be more productive. I started working out again, shit feels good. Im almost at my target weight which is weird, only because this time last year I was almost 50 pounds heavier. I have somehow managed to get my managers on my good side, so work is actually becoming kinda fun. I wrecked my car last night, not really "wrecked" as much as knocked off my side view mirror on a construction cone, regardless its money I don't have.

Im done talking to Steph. She wants to be really good friends, so I'll just let her belive that's what we are. There are tons of sexy girls at work, so its fun to flirt. Ill get by.

This year, I will do whatever it takes to make it.

2. Rise Or Die

-CF

A New Year, A New Man

So I told myself I was going to up-date this thing daily starting in 2010, and not just of random bullshit like last year but at least one meaningful thing, good or bad I walked away from that day with. Well almost ten days into the year and I make my fist one, I guess it shows how much a promise made to myself means to me, haha. ( I really dont find that humorous, laughing just seems to make any situation a little less serious)

Matt is no longer in ASY, his g/f is pregnant.
Steph still talks to me every once in a while, it tears me up every time, contemplating telling her to fuck off.
I hate most girls.
I hate most guys.
Work sucks.
My band is going nowhere fast.

Really nothing is going for me right now, but I'm not depressed. I think I have finally reached a new level of apathy, or maybe I smoke enough weed to just stay in a good mood.

Whatever.

Lesson learned so far this year.
1. Live YOUR Life.

-CF

Turning A Corner

Once again, I have gone without updating dating in over a month haha. I find myself to busy to sit behind a computer and type out my days events, as much as id love to.
I am currently working two jobs. Still doning landscaping and now I have a job as a cashier at Academy. Academy has been nothing but awesome so far.

I have turned a new leaf in my life, I have discovered therapy through writing. I pretty much write all the lyrics for ASY now. Our current EP doesn't reflect that, but our new cd will. It's crazy to think we've been a band for such a short period of time and we already have an EP and a full length ready to record. Them chemistry between all of us in incredible.

For the first time in my life, I have legitimate feelings for a girl. It took me rekindling a connection with a middle school "love" to realize what I truly need in a partner. im sorry from the bottom of my heart that it wasn't her, but she helped me open my eyes so for that I'm thankful. Back to the girl. I find myself oddly attracted to her, as cliche as it sounds it was practically love at first sight. Shes hands down the most gorgeous girl I have ever laid eyes on, shes intelligent, witty, funny, and just an all around caring girl. She has inspired me to the greatest of lengths, and she brings out the best in me, shes beyond amazing, the girl lights up the room no matter where she is, and she doesn't even know it. She does have one downside, and that happens to be her boyfriend.......it figures the one girl I start having legitimate feelings for would have a boyfriend. At least I have her in my life, that'll do for now I guess.

After struggling with the two extremes of "partying" or being "straightedge" ive decided (with the help of the aforementioned young lady) that I don't need to party, I enjoy life more, its better for my voice, just an all around better idea. I choose not to claim any title, if I want a beer ill drink a beer. But I don't see myself loosing the state of sobriety anytime soon, if ever.

Times are hard, But with the help of my closest friends, family, brothers in ASY, and her. It'll take more than life can ever throw at me to keep me down.

-Chris

p.s. ITS GETTING COLD!!!!!!!
p.s.s. I have finally excepted I love country music, mainly Brad Paisley, weird.

Recording

Was fucking amazing and stressful.
It was awesome working with a guy I looked up to growing up.

This band is on to something special.

Just wait and see!

I have a lot to share, but not right now.

Dexter season 2 and bed!

Wild Weekend

Friday night I drove out to FWB for a late night practice.
Shafey decided we should grab a beer since I got there like 4 hours early.
Low and behold Quintin showed up out of nowhere, Dave Miller was there and then a bunch of other dudes from the FWB chapter showed up.

We had a few laughs and a couple beers and then I went to practice.
Practice was pretty rad, turns out I'm singing a bunch now, kinda weird but fun.

After Practice Erik, Steven, and I walked back to the Duck and got a dew more beers.
A huge party broke out people were dancing and getting buck wild it was crazy.
We all ended up at Dave's and continued to party till the sun came up.
I might a pretty awesome connection with the 26 year old, turns out shes one of my friends "ex" so that's a no go.

Saturday Quintin and I came back to Milton and got lunch with Destry and Coogss. Quintin and I went to the compound to re-fuel our highfighters, and ended up playing video games for half the day. Then Cooggs, Quintin and I went to Destrys and we all hung out for a while and vaped. Then we all took our highfighters to wal-mart and got some pepsi and what not. Came hoem and a couple drinks and watched tv. Cory came over and so did Brittney, and then Courtney(titties) and that was kinda awkward. I find it humorous when people go out of there way to not talk to me.

Sunday I worked with my parents in the morning, bought madden 10, and went to practice. Practice was super awesome. Except Erik "accidentally" ate his roommates special brownie, but it was so funny seeing him like that no one was mad. Right after practice jayfray surprised me with a delicious treat. then we all went to the shop (tattoosforever) and hung out for at least 2hours and shared sooooo many laughs.

Shauncey is dating the nurse from the crazy Ocala trip. I know hes a good dude because, my first thought was "Lucky her" I know he'll treat that girl like a queen. I'm happy to see him so happy.

Overall good weekend.
I'm still way to lonely for my own good though.
and I wish I was leaving for tour tonight with AMBUSH!

At least I have recording to look forward to this weekend.
even if it IS in Tampa :/

-Chris

Yet

Another Uneventful day.
The only thing really worth mentioning is I might be coming part owner of my bosses company.
That would allow me unlimited touring and a steady job when Im not.
Could be fucking awesome!

Here we go again!

Alright, so once again its been about a month since my last post.
I actually was in the middle of an extremely long and detailed post when my computer crashed.
I have my computer back now and heres a quick update
Dad is home, he is finally out of the woods....I think.
ASY is my new baby in life. Ive never felt more confident.
We record with Kelli from M.A.T.S.O.D. the first weekend of September.
Went to Ocala this weekend. Fucking amazing.
Britney is the most confusing girl ever.
I have kind of weeded out my friends, and I wouldnt have it any other way.
Work still sucks
So do girls.

But I think Im actually happy?

Only time will tell.

-Chris